We’re on the LIST !!!!

My heart just about leapt out of my chest as I noticed a big white A4 size envelope leaning up in my mailbox!!  I just knew what it was before I even picked it up.  I knew it was going to be from the Fertility Clinic and I knew it would tell me where we are heading, it was going to give us our next steps….whether positive or negative.  I could almost not contain the excitement I felt as I began to open up the envelope, there was nothing printed anywhere on the outside to say it was even from them but I knew that they wouldn’t for confidentiality reasons….the postie doesn’t need to know I’m getting fertility mail after all.

I prayed as I was opening the envelope that God would have his hand in whatever was contained inside.  As I read the first line of the letter which was headed ‘First Specialist Appointment’ oh the excitement was so overwhelming.  To finally be starting this adventure is so super exciting and I am going to do my best to try and keep a positive attitude throughout and pray that this would help other people going through the same thing.

So as I continued reading through the letter it says we have been funded to have this first specialist appointment (which is happening towards the end of the month….eeeeee).  This appointment is for us to go through with the doctor our medical history and discuss any questions we may have regarding our fertility and the possible treatment plan.

Then there was a second letter that is headed up ‘Public Funded Waiting List Acceptance’ ….boom!! There it is….“this letter is to confirm that we have reviewed your CPAC score for public funded treatment waiting list and wish to advise that your score is above the threshold for treatment”.  Oh the best feeling ever, even though I had a fair amount of certainty that we would be accepted, to see it in writing just cements it.

Then I read on a wee bit further and it says “currently the wait for call up is approximately 10 months” !!!  Awesome…more waiting!!  I have 2 ways to react to this piece of information 1) I can get all down in the dumps and frustrated with the fact that we have been waiting/trying to conceive for like 9 years already and now another potential year to wait just to reach the top of the list before we can even look at starting any treatment or 2) I can keep a positive attitude (because nothing I do can change the fact that I have to wait regardless) and use this time as preparation because in the big scheme of things…10 months isn’t actually that long when you stop and think about it.  9 years is long and I have managed that pretty well…..so what’s another year 🙂

I pray that God will continue to have His hand in all facets of this adventure and that He will use me somehow to bring glory to Him and also that He is still more than capable of opening my womb for us to conceive naturally as well….husband and I might as well use this time for something haha.